All things hold together

Up reflecting...today officially makes three years at my job.  I am overwhelmed a bit by the myriad of emotions I am feeling right now.   So much has happen in this time to me and those in my life between September 27, 2010 - September 27, 2013.  In that dash there lies so many seasons and transitions of life.  I thought of trying to list all the successes and failures, gains and losses, the happiness and heartache, but I wanted to get this down and not get lost in my attempt to think of everything.  I never could have imagined, wished or guessed but what I do know for certain, God is before all things and in God ALL things hold together.

The sermon my Pastor gave last Sunday still resonates so deeply with me.  He talked about Jacob and how Jacob held on to his brother Esau's heel during birth and was pulled from womb via his brother.  And how Jacob held on to and wrestled with the angel while saying he wouldn't let go until he was blessed.  

I didn't know I would be writing this post in the wee hours of the morning when I heard the message on Sunday, but these past three years have been like Jacob's story.  Selah.  There have been times when, like Jacob with his brother's heel, I've held on to God and/or the support of my friends and family as I gone through difficult transitions but didn't have the strength, confidence, knowledge or faith to "birth" myself through the situation.  As I held on, they pulled me through!   There have been times, like Jacob with the angel, where I had unshakeable faith to hold on because I knew God's purpose and plan for me and those in my life and was willing, no matter what, to "wrestle" until that blessing manifested for me or for them.

One of my favorite songs is India Arie's "God is Real" (all of her songs are my favorites #granoladiva).  She's reflecting on all the wonders of life and nature and the chorus repeats, "That's how I know God is real/all of this is not by chance".  Sometimes we need to take time away from the present situation and be reminded that God is real and in Him all things HOLD together.

I'm not sure what is in store tomorrow or the next three years, but I am firm in my belief that I have been given and will be given everything I need to do what I am purposed to do.  Although each day may not be the best and at times I may fall short, I know to hold on.